Back To My Norms & Dayumn Happy About It
After weeks of wallowing in the muck and being down, out, and
depressed...I'm finally over it. It took some time, good talks with my
friends, a lot of prayer, extra visits to church, lots of private
conversations with God, some alone time, a lot of contemplation, and
working massive over time at work to keep my mind busy.....but I'm over
it. This past week I worked both jobs every single day because of the
stupid fake holiday of Columbus day. To top it off....I wasn't feeling
to well and thought I may have been coming down with a bad cold. So
the whole week I was pretty much feeling run down and in a foul mood.
Then friday came...and I woke up and felt differently. I felt like a
weigh had been taken off of my shoulders. So I actually went into work
that day happy and upbeat. Work at the office went ok.....and then I
had to work at the bank....which was the same ol same ol. Julian and
Willie are now gone...so it was a lot quieter and less entertaining for
me now since my "brothers" are gone. Sat across from the boss man and
made fun of him half the time until he told me I was too slow and had
to show him I still got the speed in me. Good thing Billy brought me
and Nino Starbucks! Yay for Billy! Anyhow...we got off kinda late
still. On the drive home is when "it" finally came.....I finally
exhaled. Yenno....that deep breath that it feels like you were holding
inside of you for so long when you are depressed and stressed out. I
was on the 15 south connector to the 805 south/94 east.....I was coming
around the curve when it came out of me....and it felt so good....I was
happy again. I felt like myself. This whole weekend so far has just
been a reaffirmation of the fact that I am back to being me and back to
being normal.
Friday night I went out to Aurbergine's with
Tony. MC Hammer was there for the Asian Film Festival special event
deal they were doing there. We got in free because of this 93.3 text
message thing that April told me to do. Saw Gino, Sammy, Drew, and
Bryner there. Ran into James Aguimatang there too. Saw some dude who
looked fmailiar and said hi to me....but I couldn't remember his name
to save my life. Saw Danny there too....haven't seen since I was with
Thy...which was like 4 years ago. Heh. Afterwards, headed over to
Vision with Tony, Sammy, Gino, Drew, and Bryner.....we all walked over
there despite the rain.....which I never mind being in the rain....I
actually love walking in the rain...so yep. On the way to
Visions...had a mini talk with Sammy after I had announced to all them
that me and Clay are no more. So Sammy and me had a mini talk (just
the two of us) discussing things and relationships and such on the way
to Visions while everyone trailed behind us. Got to Visions and Derek
is at the door (the guy who remembered me from Monte Vista). Got in
and who was the first familiar face I see?? Hoa!!! Ha ha....haven't
seen him since I ran into him and his girl wandering around downtown
over the Summer. Lac, Chan, Andy and all the guys were there....so I
had lots to say hi to.....faces I had been forced to stay away from in
order to respect the space of my ex boyfriend....but he moved to Vegas
anyways...so now its all good. Lac kept telling guys to stay away from
me and pretending I was his ex girlfriend. Darryl, Dhore, Richie and
their girls were all there with Kris, Deo, Sheila, & Rini in tow.
Shawn, Jordon, RJ, and Ian were all there too. So yep...a lot of heads
were at Visions.....so I ejoyed socializing with all the different
groups. Had fun....got kinda drunk....so it was all good. Afterwards
we ate at JVs with the high school crew.
Saturday I was
chilling at home in bed all morning. Then I got a call from Steph and
she wanted to go dress shopping...so I eventually got ready and went to
meet up with her. We had some serious "life talks" and hit up
downtown. Steph found a dress for next weekend...I bought a dress and
a tank top....but still need to find something for next weekend. Ha.
Yeah....next weekend we are doing an LA trip....which is
good.,.,because like I've said....I need it....I just need out of San
Diego.....I need something different. So I'll find a dress by the
weekend...no worries there. After shopping and grubbin on some Thai
food with Steph and Anthony downtown....went back to my car and then
rolled over to Pat and Yogi's. Played video games with Mike's son,
Marcus for a whiles. Pat left to go to "Walmart" dressed up all pretty
with a backpack in tow...ha ha. Silly guy on the down low. Eventually
Yogi cooked up some tilapia and we ate raw oysters. Beth and Zal came
over. Later Mike and I went out for some beers while Marcus was
knocked out. We all drank up for a whiles there....then Zal and Yogi
headed out to downtown first. Beth and I waited for Rodel....then we
left Mike and Marcus at the pad. We got t downtown....met up with
Michelle at Ben's and hit up the bar next door. Then we it up Vision's
(damn....2 night in a row there for me). Vision's was cool....I wanted
Rod and Michelle to be able to drink...so I said I would drive. So I
cut myself off from hard lac and stuck to beer because I can handle
large amounts of beer and driving....hard lac gets a little more
complicated. So yep. Everyone got pretty butt drunk and we had a good
time. Everyone pretty much crashed out at Pat and Yogi's.
So
here I am now....just chillin at home. I've decided to go to church
later on tonight. So my plan is to get ready now...run some
errands....then take my dog to the park....then hit up church tonight
and call it a day.
So yeah....that was my weekend. It has been
a good weekend.....it felt like a reaffirmation to myself that my life
is back to being my life....that I'm back to that time earlier this
year where I was happy, single, and didn't give a fuck about guys.
Talking with Beth last night...we just kept saying "fuck guys" the
whole time....the two of us are just in the same place right now when
it comes to that.....so there isn't much one can do about that.
Yenno? So its all about me right now. I'm happy to have plans for the
next 3 weekends....because like I said....I just needed to get back to
being me. Next weekend I'm going to LA with Steph. The weekend after
we are going to Vegas for Beth's birthday. The weekend after that is
Beth, Rod, and Chella's birthday deal at Stingaree. But to put things
straight...I am NOT a party girl....I go out because it gives me
something to do. In reality....I prefer to just stay home and watch
DVDs and play video games...I'm just tired of doing it alone....so
that's why I stay home and do that during the weekdays and then go out
and socialize on the weekends. Doing the same thing all week kinda
kills it....yenno? But witht he weather being how it is right now...it
makes it real easy to just stay home an snuggled and warm in bed...ha
ha.
This week I got a lot of stuff to do. Gotta work on school
paperwork and do a little bit of shopping. So yeah. Gonna make some
breakfast now...get ready and begin my day. Maybe I'll write more
laters when I'm bored....but bye for now!!
happy new year's 'n birtday27 celeste......................
bla.bla.bla..................
see you 'n' nice too meet you
sexy women please dont cry....
ciuphapha.........^^
Posted by: dimas | December 29, 2007 10:14 PM